35 DAYS

wow we have been out of school for 35 days! i have really wasted a month!!!! we are not doing much of anything. i am getting better at reading my scriptures each day though. our family is speaking in sacrament meeting sunday. my talk is 20 minutes long. wow! my brother and his wife are arriving tomorrow from utah. they are on the way to atlanta where their son lives and my other brother and currently my mom is visiting there too. theis is my 2 month break from taking care of mom. sam, my 16 year old finished being a teachers aid for volunteer hours at kindercamp today. he has been there for a month.now he will be home a little more to help me with major cleaning, blinds & windows. and painting the living room, kitchen, and his room. the week after the 4th kevin goes to BS camp and the week after that i will go to girls camp. summer will be over before we know it. charles has started dating his old girlfriend. i wonder if it is just because she is familar, or if the feelings are really coming back. i really just want him to be happy andbe able to take care of himself. i found a diamond ring that has 7 small stones on a band that i showed to danny. i really want it and hope he gets it for my late 30 th anniversary present and combined birthday.

29th day

wow we have been out of school for 29 days. i haven't been so good about writing everyday! life is trying to get back to normal. i still cry a lot, especially today because i went to aaron's blog and saw pictures of funeral and pictures of the van. loree and mason, megan, and michael left on the 10th and arrived home safely. we love them so much and just wish they were closer. i got my "seminary room" done. (cleaned out!) i have a nice comfy chair and foot stool in the closet room. haven't seemed to get much else done though. reading and relaxing. dana and i celebrated our 30th wedding anniversay last sunday (on father's day). he gave me some beautiful red roses and ballons and a cooling pad for my computer. i gave him a small frig for the bedroom and 10 CD's that are a replacement for the 1's our older son, charles lost. we are aspending tomorrow together, movie,etc. the boys are going on a float trip with YM. my brother is comming next week for a few days. it will be great to see him and his wife, elaine. dana, kevin and I have to give a talk in sacrament next week so i am working on that this week since my brother will be here next weekend. some cleaning to do this week but not much. sam has 4 more days of kindercamp then he will only be working at LJS. then hopefully we will get some painting done and the mini blinds washed. kev and i are home again so we are going to a movie, party put on by sam's orthodonist. we have 4 more weeks till mom comes back. life is much easier without her around to take care of. i will try to get better with this post stuff. i did figure out how to put some pictures on!

DAY 12

TODAY was ok. i felt better today. i got my nails done and a massage. then i went down and talked to loree some. i'm so glad mason is here with her. i love him. some tension going on but not totally unexpected. i wish loree didn't have to go through it though, cause she has enoough to do already. tomorrow won't be quite as easy. aaron's memorial service is tomorrow. michael and kevin had a great time today. it's sad they have to cram in 6 months worth of playing into a week. now i think this may be the last time they ever visit us since their is no family here anymore. that is very sad for me. friends are so hard to make and i still don't have a friend like loree. i guess sometimes you just can't ever have a replacement friend. but it is so hard to have had 1 then you really know what you are missing. i am just glad though i had the chance to have such a good close friend. i know she is going to have a hard summer trying to help cameron.

11TH DAY

today i worked really hard. my back is really hurting. whenever i have stress it goes straight to my back where i hurt myself from my car accident 4 years ago. i can't get a massage appointment till tomorrow. i cleaned my mom's room from top to bottom. washed all bedding down to mattresses and curtains. went through all drawers and closet. took out 2- 30 gallon trash bags of clothes mom doesn't wear out to give away. my main problem is getting sam motivated to get his cleaning done and kevin the same! loree got here @ 8pm and brought michael over. kevin was glad he got here finally. tomorrow i have a busy day... 11 nails, 2 massage and 7 my 1st seminary teachers meeting of the summer. i hope i have some time for loree tomorrow.

10th day

today is 10th day of vacation but really my vacation starts tomorrow. i just got back from taking mom to my brothers in memphis. i have a 7 week break from taking care of mom. i worry cause my sister-in-law doesn't want to help. they have @15 of thier family members who live within an hour of them. i think it is the least they can do to help for 7 weeks. i have 10 months. loree and family are coming tomorrow for aaron's memorial. so tomorrow is cleaning and laundry day. i have to go exercise and go to chiropractor though! my back is killing me! and i haven't exercised but 2 x's in last 2 weeks. this next week is going to be hectic. hope i find time to make entry every day. dan did some cleaning today so i just have final touches and still seminary room to do.